would you have recognized my heart
disappearing into myself
hiding from you
trying to change this landscape
exhausting explaining why
wishing today never happened
testing this fragile hold on my normality
dismantling these memories
battling internal and external forces
crashing into your combustible headspace fighting the tomorrows not yet past would I have loved you then
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it’s all for you
it’s all because of you
it’s all from you
it’s all filled with you
it’s all thanks to you
it’s all i know
it’s all yours
it always will be you
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falling for you breathless with anticipation
awakened by these wavering thoughts
just see me underestimating
the swiftness of these emotions
falling into you selfish with passion
hoping for these careless words just be mine unconditionally the stillness of these moments
falling with you resolved with affirmation elevated by these possibilities
just linger here
unchanging
the happiness of these memories
21
Lights are shining
Snow is falling
They’re all smiling
But Time is calling
And you’re not here
And I miss you
I miss you, mistletoe
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my least favorite occupation
is chasing clouds held in my mind
keeping hopelessness from swallowing
this endless love
this selfish madness
that infects my silent night
will the stars argue
will the moonlight answer
please come wake me up
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morning stillness has evaded me once again
piecing fragments of this lucid nightmare
with conversations from my captured soul
calming this chaotic neutral
constructing strength to stand
to move forward without you
to know what I have to do
and endure these moments beyond
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I wish you could
I wish you would
Hold me one more time
Breathe me one more time
Kiss me one more time
Wanting one more first time
Needing one more last time
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what to do with this endless heart
how you went away
in madness and magic
permanently tragic
I’m here lonely alone
silently screaming at concrete angels
waiting impatiently for our lost somedays
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what to do with these endless nights
while stars share their dying light
I’m here talking with your stone
heartbroken over our stolen moments
afraid of love left behind
impatiently waiting for our next lifetime
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oblivious to your souls nakedness
wounded by your yesterdays
unaware of the shadows they cast
echoing to be free